I'm not a fan of using the term "sucks" and if anyone were to actually hear me say the word, it would sound awkward and slithery coming off my tongue. I can't think of a better time then to use such a word though... life really sucks sometimes.
Depression is my middle name. I know it looks like Elizabeth but don't be fooled.
I know God gives trials to help us grow but does He really expect us to be happy about it? If so, I'll just blame my unhappiness on this disease I have. Social anxiety. Depression.
They say you are never alone and I am sure they are right. I bet they also know what it is like to feel so much talent and ability trapped inside a incredibly anxious mind. I have NO DOUBT that I could be anything that I wanted to be. ANYTHING. It seems almost cruel to give so much talent to a person who can't seem to do anything about it. My trial wouldn't be so bad really, if I wasn't so talented.
Ahh well. Who am I to complain. I am not alone remember. Others suffer. Others know how I feel right? Somehow that doesn't make things seem better for me.
6/06/2010
My Process of Creating Music
I just began to write a new original song this past week. It's been a while (4-5 years) since I have really completed an original piece, and so the whole experience is kind of exciting. Someone once asked me how I do what it is I do, and to be honest with you... I DON'T KNOW. I find the process so incredible that I thought I would try to put it into words.
When I compose, I don't make the conscious decision to write a specific theme or idea. For example, I don't all-of-a-sudden decide to create a song about heartache or happiness. My first and ONLY complete original piece took me several years to finish. It wasn't until the end of those 'several years' that I even knew what my song was about. I also don't write a song from beginning to end... but randomly. I'm starting to feel like I can't really explain myself. Let's try this again...
I sit down to the piano. The spirit works through me to create a small phrase of music. I practice that small phrase of music over and over again to make sure I remember what the spirit would have me play. Sometimes days will pass before I again receive inspiration for another phrase of music. Slowly over time, all the little bits and pieces of music come together into something so incredible I know it is not all my own doing. I play what the Lord would have me play (and coincidently... what I like to hear). That is how I write music.
So... I'm pretty excited to see where this new original ends up. I have NO IDEA what it is about or why I have been inspired to write what is written so far. It's sounding pretty amazing and I guess I'll have to wait and see!
Love ALWAYS & FOREVER! -Morgan
When I compose, I don't make the conscious decision to write a specific theme or idea. For example, I don't all-of-a-sudden decide to create a song about heartache or happiness. My first and ONLY complete original piece took me several years to finish. It wasn't until the end of those 'several years' that I even knew what my song was about. I also don't write a song from beginning to end... but randomly. I'm starting to feel like I can't really explain myself. Let's try this again...
I sit down to the piano. The spirit works through me to create a small phrase of music. I practice that small phrase of music over and over again to make sure I remember what the spirit would have me play. Sometimes days will pass before I again receive inspiration for another phrase of music. Slowly over time, all the little bits and pieces of music come together into something so incredible I know it is not all my own doing. I play what the Lord would have me play (and coincidently... what I like to hear). That is how I write music.
So... I'm pretty excited to see where this new original ends up. I have NO IDEA what it is about or why I have been inspired to write what is written so far. It's sounding pretty amazing and I guess I'll have to wait and see!
Love ALWAYS & FOREVER! -Morgan
6/02/2010
Making My Music Public
I actually figured out how to run a blog! FINALLY! And now I am going to put it to good use.
Once upon a time, I was a music major at BYU-Idaho in Rexburg Idaho. I was fresh out of high school and probably not-so-ready to begin life (that's another story for another time). I had always wanted to be a music major and couldn't possibly imagine any other alternative. Four years later... I begin to create a blog of my life's failures and accomplishments, fears and hopes, and the childhood dream of sharing my talent with the world.
I cannot foresee the future or what is in store for me, but I hope that one day my music will become readily available to anyone who is willing to hear divine truth in my music. I hope to touch the world with what I remember of heaven.
I'll continue to make posts in the future with updates on new compositions, music publications (fingers crossed), upcoming CD's, and so forth!
Love ALWAYS & FOREVER! -Morgan
Once upon a time, I was a music major at BYU-Idaho in Rexburg Idaho. I was fresh out of high school and probably not-so-ready to begin life (that's another story for another time). I had always wanted to be a music major and couldn't possibly imagine any other alternative. Four years later... I begin to create a blog of my life's failures and accomplishments, fears and hopes, and the childhood dream of sharing my talent with the world.
I cannot foresee the future or what is in store for me, but I hope that one day my music will become readily available to anyone who is willing to hear divine truth in my music. I hope to touch the world with what I remember of heaven.
I'll continue to make posts in the future with updates on new compositions, music publications (fingers crossed), upcoming CD's, and so forth!
Love ALWAYS & FOREVER! -Morgan
7/11/2009
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